Series of Observations: Expectations

Way back in my first blog on this website, I mentioned that I would write about my journey in the wonderfully intimidating world of the screen (film, television, online) industry so I’ve decided to write a series of observations 💭 where I will explore and share my thoughts on things I’ve noticed happening throughout my experiences. Here’s the first!

If you haven't been aware, over the last 4 months I’ve been facilitating a series of Podcasting workshops at SLQ The Edge and every time I go into a session I have the same anxious thoughts running through my head. Am I going to offer valuable information? Am I going to have enough content to fill the allocated time? Basically, am I going to meet expectations?? 

I was thinking tonight how much this thought process mimics the creative process, well, for me anyway… If I’m working on a creative project for someone or even working on my own stuff, I often have similar questions and thoughts in my mind as I get started. It’s this whole mindset of meeting other people’s expectations and impressing them in some way. While this is obviously a necessary evil in situations where you are working on a project for someone else, but it’s when this anxiousness crosses over to our own work it tends to become a problem. It’s the thing that tends to stop creatives from actually starting out. What if they fail? What if what they do doesn't meet their own expectations of quality or value? What if, what if, what if… ⁉️

From the experience of facilitating these workshops I’ve come to understand how much this anxiousness and limit a person and how unrealistic these expectations can be. My first workshop (my first time ever teaching in a larger capacity) was... let’s just say a flop. I’m not sure exactly because I can never few it from an attendee’s point of view but I just know that when I walked (yes I know technically I wheeled but whatever…) that I felt I had let everyone down. This may have been an over exaggeration and I received no negative feedback personally but I know I definitely did not do my best work. This was a first experience though and my expectation of smashing it out of the park on my first attempt was most definitely an unrealistic expectation I had on myself. Since then I have found my rhythm with teaching and so far have had some pretty positive feedback. I’ve now made it a point of literally telling myself that if I positively affect one person in some way, I’ve done my job. You will never please every single person whether it be in art or business but as long as you can provide some positive effect on someone, that’s a great thing. 

As I mentioned, I still have those same annoying negative thoughts run through my head before every session and get the nerves travelling throughout my body but by focusing on positively affecting just one person, not an entire room full, it is easier to get through. If I can just transfer this mentality over to my creative work it will hopefully enable me to not only feel better about sharing my work but also be freer with my creativity.

P.S. If you're keen to find out more information on the Podcasting workshops I've been facilitating, here's the link 😉